Have We Met Before?

Winter has passed. Spring, summer, and fall have come and gone. A year has passed and the flowers are now blooming. It’s been a while, huh? It’s nice to see you again. I’m sorry I haven’t stopped by lately.

I sat here for a good hour trying to think of what to say. Like with most of my other writing projects, my mind came up blank. Writing has been a struggle since Lucky died. I lost my motivation to write. I attempted to write on a few occasions, but the words never came. I’m still not sure what to say as I type this, but I want to get back to doing the things I enjoy and get back on track. I have to start somewhere, so I’m starting with this blog. I plan to keep this short, though.

I miss Lucky every single day and sometimes I still cry. She’ll always have a piece of my heart. A couple of weeks after Lucky’s passing, we brought home a new kitty, an adorable 6-month-old, which I named Raven Avalon Pookie. Raven will never replace Lucky, but she fills a void. I struggle with stress and anxiety, but she calms me down. Raven is the reason for countless smiles and giggles and we share the same bond Lucky and I had. I’m really the only person in the family Raven likes. It took her 4-6 months just to let my family pet her. She’s been hissing at them ever since she had a bath and flea medicine put on her, but I’m the one who gave her the bath, shouldn’t she be hissing at me? She’s a momma’s girl and I love her dearly.

I was able to bring my desk back in my room so I had a designated writing space. Of course, I had to clean my room and get rid of some things, but it was worth it even though I haven’t used it much. I bought some wall art I call my ‘window view’ so it looks like I have a desk with a view. I chose a city view to inspire me and remind me of all the people out in the world with their unique stories. Everyone has a story to tell.

If there’s one takeaway from the last year, it’s that I met a lot of new and interesting people. Some were only in my life for a season—for example, the men I dated (master manipulator and the irresponsible drinker). Then there are others I know will be in my life for a long time such as my best friend (more on that later).

As my stomach begins to growl and I crave a Smores pop-tart, I’ll end this blog post with this: 2018 is going to be a big year; it’s going to be my year. It has to be the year I face my fears/anxieties and get on my feet. There will be a lot of changes and firsts. We’re only three months in and it’s already been an exciting year. I’m also going to kick writing’s butt when I’m not busy with everything else I’ll have going on! I’m scared what the near future will bring, but I look forward to all the things i’ll accomplish and the new experiences.

I hope everyone’s year is going well!

I promise to post more,


“You can’t stop the future
You can’t rewind the past
The only way to learn the secret
…is to press play.” ― Jay Asher


1 Comment

  1. Rachael Zalesky

    I’ll give you a writing assignment to try to help the creative juices flow. I want you to write completely truthfully and honestly about Lucky. Let out some of your anxieties and honor her. Write about the day you got her, and how she helped your writing. Post it or don’t, but don’t hold back. Let out your feelings. Do you remember a few years ago when I wrote about my grandma? It was so therapeutic. Give it a go! I want you to write again, you were always so creative!

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